Holy freaking trigger.
Seriously?
Ugh. I can’t wait to go back to high school and see if I’m actually as far along in recovery as I think I am. >.<
throughout the day
me: wow I'm fat
me: maybe I look ok
me: I AM PERFECT THE WAY I AM
me: I'm fucking disgusting I'm losing weight now
me: I am more than just my weight!
me: who the fuck cares about anything
me: I AM SO FAT.
me: idk curves are beautiful i am beautiful
me: i hate myself
Some days I feel disordered and I’m sad I’m not sickly-thin anymore but other days I’m like “DAMMIT I WANT MY CURVES BACK SO I CAN BE SEXY AND NOT LOOK LIKE A 12-YEAR-OLD.”
Watching documentaries on YouTube. Click on “Super Size Me” and the ad in the beginning is for Victoria’s Secret.
Lol.
As much as I pretty much only like watching Toddlers and Tiaras to make fun of pageants in general…
(because really, we only watch reality TV to condescend. Admit it.)
As much as child pageants disgust me, I have to point out that I haven’t yet heard any judges or parents discuss weight and body image. And I have noticed that a fair amount of the little girls on the show are a bit on the pudgy side.
Just something I noticed. There’s probably a ridiculously unhealthy body image pressure on thge little girls, but it isn’t a huge part of Toddlers and Tiaras in general. I even noticed one chubbier little girl legitimately flaunting her belly, and it was adorable. =)
